When I first met you several years ago, you asked me a series of tough questions. The most difficult was “What do you like about yourself?”. It was a very short list. A few months later you asked me the same question. At least then I had a slightly better answer for you. Between those two moments you helped lead me through the darkness. “One foot in front of the other. We’ll get through this”, you would tell me, almost as if you were shouldering part of the weight that I felt. You never stopped searching for the good in me. You never stopped believing.
On our last day together you placed a note in my hand, that I’ve continued to carry in my wallet ever since. It was a reminder to myself of everything that I had accomplished, and what still lay ahead. I know that you would tell me to continue to chase my dreams, but focus on those that can be truly realized. I know that you would tell me to live with my heart, and to avoid those who do not. To believe in myself the way that you did. To live in the moment, because… quite simply, Life is too short to waste standing still.
I sent your Christmas card two days ago. Unfortunately, you will never receive it, but I know that the words I wrote in there would make you smile. I have never, will never, forget all that you have given me. You always seemed to find the best in any situation. Your caring and selflessness continued to lift me up when I needed it the most.
I carry this with me:
Tomorrow when you leave this place I want you to remember, you are braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and more gifted than you think. And most important of all, even though we are apart, I’ll always believe in you! You can do this. “Christopher Robin to Winnie the Pooh” Sort of.
You’ve left us far too soon…
I’ll miss you, Always…
PS: “Add a ‘smiley face’ at the bottom”